Full of anxiety...

I'm feeling nervous, full of anxiety. cant help it. whenever i see his name, hear his voice. i get excited and scared. butterflies flying in my stomach. the feeling of falling in love but not really. the fact that he choose to let go of me. and move ahead. shows how cruel he was to me. i did my best, i really did. was i not good enough for him or rather i should think he's not good enough for me. trying my best to forget him. but every time. his voice just ring in my head. I'm suffering from mild form of hallucinations. maybe its due to binge on alcohol.. having nightmare almost every night. having insomnia. i sound like a mental person. but I'm not. maybe I'm just having depression. like a wise said. a person who is so happy is the most saddest person, cause he/she is hiding their deepest feelings. maybe... But im glad he's fine. enjoying his every moment. didnt want to disturb his life. pray that he will be truly happy. wish him happiness. he's not a good guy and he's not a truely a bad guy......