Pouring my heart out..

I always thought it took a very strong person to hold on, but I finally realized it takes an even stronger person to let go. So, I guess today I have to be that stronger person. I have to harden my heart, and not let my feelings burst out and control my mind. If it's meant to be mine, it will be mine. I've try putting up a fight and fight for someone i love, but it didn't work and i give up. He is the reason for anything good that is in me today and the reason for what I may become. It's been so hard for me to accept that we're living separate lives now, looking at things as if we're strangers. The pain that you brought me was not easy to forget. Maybe I'm still not over you, even if I sing 1000 times that I'm over you, I know deep in my heart that I'm not. But the sad fact is that you never tried or attempted to straighten things out between us. You never tried to fight for our love. Maybe because you never really loved me at all. And it pained me the most to know that you can envision your life without me. It's strange how i keep talking about you in my blog. I'm sometimes like a fool watching every moment of you and so desperate for you to notice my existence. And so i give up loving you. And i know that you letting me go was the best decision you ever make. And I'm glad you make that decision seeing you so happy and carefree. Is the best gift.