What a feeling...

I did not do blogging for weeks now, Neither have i uploaded the pictures that i snap. Basically If its friends outing its only ones in a while. Most of the time I'm always alone, doing my own things. Even if i went out to do shopping or catch a movie. I'm always alone. Sound pathetic right. How can 'Elly' turn out this way. I use to be be afraid to be left alone. but now i can be left alone, without talking to anyone. I'm now adapting really well to the life of a anti-social. I seriously change alot. Even i surprised myself. I used to be the cheerful and talkative girl but now I'm the opposite of the old Elly. Sometimes i miss the old Elly. I no longer on good terms with my family. Lets just say I'm the thorn in their flesh like how i view them too. I seriously hate to be on the same house with them. I'm always praying that my prince charming will save me from this. but i got no reactions when i see a handsome looking guy. Not like the old Elly who used to get all excited when she see one cute guy. Example i was walking alone at novena square last week, walk past this guy who smile at me, i turn away looking at the other direction. pretending not to notice him. it was obvious i was avoiding. he was calling out to me but i pretended not to hear him. I didn't know whats wrong with me. I'm now have the personality of a weak, inferior complex, low confidence girl. this year I'm turning 21. is this how it going to turn out. i wonder...