wishing i was dead

Late at night i sit alone and cry the tears i call my home everyone else is sound alseep i feel the pain it's so unsettling i pull my hair i scratch my wrist i hold myself in my arms i wander the house alone i wonder why its always me it's like a sick and twisted games i dont understand the logic i cant make sense of my thoughts running through my head so i lay down at night wishing i was dead ........
 
Im suffering a heartbreak again, why m i so unlucky?!! why?! its only been a few months and i suffered another heartbreak. this is too tragic for me. I told you my heart is fragile and you just have to be selfish, walk out of my life and leave me here to pick up the broken pieces. And i still cant find the heart to hate you for what you did. I'll just take it that im dead....