Why!

I miss you alot David Tan. your voice, smiles, your smells still linger in my mind over and over again. it just wont leave me alone no matter how hard i try to forget. it's been half a year already. and i still cant get over you as much as i want to. as much as i want to deceive myself but i cant, i cant do it. I'm still feeling confused. but the fact that you walk away from me and leave me all alone to defend myself. you choose to leave me and make me learn the hard way. forsaking all your feelings to find someone new. just like that. how heartless can you get. how cruel can you be. I'm still here waiting and hoping and wishing with all my heart maybe you will accept me back to your life. even if its a false hope i still wish for it to happen. wishing all my dreams to come true. you may not be someone great but i love you. you change my life 180 degree's. you spolit me. although its full of ups and down in our relationship. how can you give it up so easily. you told me to find someone new and you said to me that you will give me your blessing. its the most hurtful words and it hurt the nerve so bad. did you just give me up. and treat us like nothing happen. even thou i date alot of other guys just to substitute them for you. but i need you so much. what should i do to make you come back to me. what must i do to make you love me back. all does promises is for show only. all does witnesses that bear witness to our love. its a bluff after all... i still want you back after all this time... and im missing you always. love your once lao po...