Is he that great

I cant forget about David. I've been trying my best, trying really hard. But it didn't work. Everywhere i go, No matter what i do, Everything i see is all about him. this is really tough for me. Its last year mid July we broke up and still right until now is all about him that I'm thinking about. I'm going crazy right now. seriously. I always thought that i can be stronger and tough but when it comes to the topic of 'David'. I can get very mellow and emotional. Sometimes i wish i can go back to the past and make the relationship abit more special. So that i wont have any regrets if there's any break up between us. but words is just words it wont happen the way i want. Although i try my best at winning him back. it wasn't enough. He didn't want me back. He didn't want me the Elly whom he love for the past 2 years. Every time i went out with someone all i think about is him. And if there's someone wearing the same exact t-shirt has him , i would be like emotional cause it remind me of him. Sometimes my thoughts is always full of him. Every night before i go to sleep i would always hold the photo frame which has his picture and talk to him. pouring my heart out, telling him my every day life. crying my heart out to him whenever i have problems and difficulties. That's the only way i could make myself feel better. Sometimes it make me feel pathetic doing this. I just miss him like crazy. My life has been in the roller coaster ride ever since i broke up with him. right until now its full of adventure, i will never forget. The 'ME' who is nothing to him, And the 'Him' who means something to me.